Afterlife.

Singapore :( I miss home I miss my big pooh I miss my bed I miss going out w them I miss swimming w sw I miss yy standing outside my windows at 2am w his stupid jokes I miss walking streets w them when everyone is sleeping I miss them alot alot alot :( I miss every single bit of everything :(

Yy asked why im here in the first place :z hahahahah. I dontknow. sansingobangthewallnowandsayfucktoyourself. (y)

(L) i wish i was still 14.

Haaaaaah. I’m fine lovessss :) I didnt pick up smoking. Chill k :z Thanks for those encouraging texts &calls. It really made me felt much better (L) I’ll have to work real hard next sem :c To get my Zs and As! Forget about the results! And and and and and,

Yay! Vietnam here i comeeeeee :D I always love overseas trips! :> Past few weeks. Veli busy :( Went school almost everyday. Cuz of vietnam trip. And going out w my alien friends :D And and studying w those two bitches. Please pass your supp papers k!

I think something is wrong w my stomach. Always suddenly pain for no reasons. Fucccccccccccccck. Mama say inside got worms. Hahah. Laugh la laugh la. Lawlllllllllllll at you. Hahahah.

Its 0430 in the morning and im still wide awake. Its like insomia ah ah ah~ And wose still. I’ve got to work tmr (Y) Sansin go bang the wall please.

Kkkkkkkk, my itouch dying :( I shall play my pokemom platinum.

Byeeeeeeee, wo de journal :•]

breakdown

I held my tears. From the moment i received that text.

I felt horrible. I tried so hard. But, the results are simply disappointing.

Pass is not what you want. Much more higher grades you expected from me.

I really dont think i can make it next semester.

Its not my type of subjects. Taking things too seriously sometimes, kills.

I felt dumb. Everyone’s able to score well.

Them. Scoring straight As and showing off. I tried so hard to hold back my tears.

Its simply sucks. I should’ve thaken thier subjects.

Much much more easier than this jc shit.

Off to Aus this year or 2years later. I seriously dontknow. 

What i want in life. Is what you want in my life. Thats what you told me.

I’ll try my best to make you happy eventhough it really sucks.

Accept everything you asked me to. Do everything you ask me to.

I’ll.

Now, this is the new me.

I gave up on my life. After that inccident that happened 4years back.

I think i’ve a screwed up life.

Everything’s against me.

I wanna have a peaceful life.

Far away from those thick papers. And those noise pollution.

I wanna lay on the green patch of grass watching those birds flying across the skies and those stars twinkling in the night. Listening to my favourite songs, fall asleep and never wake up again.

Pipc’s over. And, ha. Screwed up. Smart gang said its difficult. So, the dumbo me. Ofcourse cannot make it right.

Next few days it’ll be hell.

How am i gonna get thru. Im not studying what i like. Im studying what they like.

Like puppets you know, pulling left hand. Left hand raises. Ha ha ha. 

What will happen to be on the day of getting back my results.

I can already predict, i would be tearing.

Since i’ve chosen this path. I’ll do my best. As long i’ve tried. Its enough.

jay-eye-eh  why-oh-you  :>

Fuck sfp practical exam. I think i picked the most difficult question la. Arghhhhh! I almost cried while cutting those dirty potatoes ): steph was thought i cried. Okay. My question was to cook potatoes using combination methods. 2 types. I stunned when i saw the question. Fml man. Potatoes using combination methods. Wtfffff. And in the end i braised potato. In water. Theres no seasoning. And this stupid braising one completely failed. Another one was stir fry. Walaoeh. The oil keeps splattering out :( when i pour water in, pzzzzzzz. That was what i got. It scared me can :( but friends said stir fry waa not bad. Which made me feel better :) suf’s such a joker. He almost burn the whole lab down. Hahahahah! See, its not me :D teeeheeeheeee!

K, after sch went study with sufrizal khairi again. Plus his friend, northsoutheastwest. East. Hahahah! Smooooooooooooooooooooookers :l

Gonna sleep early tonight. Cant wait to meet G. I need to fa sie badly :(

Zaijiannnnnnnn :)

Fml

I studied till 3am for this bloody sfp practical. I wasnt even so hardworking when i studu for my Os. And its only practical. Okay la, i started quite late. All i can blame, myself. Ha ha ha. In the morning, i was too tired to go for obc lec :( off i go to burn down tp’s food lab! Hahahahahah!

I was just trying to blog w touch. Lawl! Toodles :D

i feel tired. tired of everything.

I remember how you motivated me to study.

I  remember you singing.

I remember you scolding me.

I remember those long messages you sent me.

I remember you smiling to your phone when you receive my text.

I remember going school with you.

I remember you buying me sweets.

I remember everything about you.

Those days. Those places. Those times.

Memorable indeed.